|Hi. I don't know
what to write in this email, I'm sorry to bother you but
I just wanted to say thank you for your site. I've felt
.... for a very long time, since I was about 8 or 9. I
tried to tell a teacher aged about 12, but I was told I
was being silly. It took me a long time but I finally
managed to talk to one of my other teachers who has been
lovely to me, I didn't tell her at first but after
talking to her I told her. Even though they are supposed
to tell a higher person, my teacher agreed not to, and
only now when I have said that she can tell the school
counselor, has she told anyone else. He's supposed to be
coming to talk to me but I think he's forgotten.
Anyway, I don't know why I'm telling you this. Even though I've told her, I only hint at it since I can't say the word and I've not gone into details. I'm terrified she thinks I say it for attention, which is not what I want to do at all. It frightens me to talk about it because people do think it's for attention, when actually I just don't want to exist. I wish I could just disappear and be gone. I don't know who else to go to, I don't want to keep bothering her even though she is so kind, but I don't want to feel like this anymore.
My parents are not an option. Sorry, I've gone off on a complete tangent.
Basically, it was good to find a website written by someone who understands. I've honestly never felt that someone gets it, gets that we learn to lie and that it can't just be sorted by talking to our parents. I just, it just helped, even for a little while.